i don't know how to deal with death

on the way home from running errands today i got a phone call from my papa. whenever i get a call from him i get worried. not that he has bad news always... he's just not the type to pick up the phone to chat. as soon as i answered & realized it wasn't my mama i asked what was wrong. he told me his baby brother had died. i never met him. i didn't even really know of him until i stumbled upon some old photo albums when i was 13. i don't know how to feel. this is new territory for me.