12AM ALARM

Home for Christmas in the valley. The papa’s alarm on his watch which is sitting on the kitchen table went off @ midnight. I’ll be up until him & the mamma get up @ a quarter to 6. Can’t work out because I’ve strained muscles in both of my feet & it’s difficult enough to stand. I can’t go anywhere. The only place open in a small town @ midnight is the Wal-Mart a bit down the road. Not fun to visit it alone. So I’m cleaning up the kitchen for Miss Dianna. Washing dishes… scrubbing countertops & back splashes… listening to a random country music station because the local top 40 station goes off air @ 11. There’s no snow… sad… & no internet here… sadder. I’ll have to drive out to my sister’s house in the morning to post this. But it’s home… can’t hate it no matter how hard you try.

how to not fall when getting into the shower

it is okay to be the only sober person at a party
it is okay to be sad
it is okay to run around the house completely naked
it is okay to have your heart broken
it is okay to paint little green army men "CHROME" for Christmas decorations
it is okay to drive an hour and a half for a 45 minute performance [especially if cake is involved]
it is okay to ride a stationary bike for 22 miles... even more okay to not
it is okay to watch audrey hepburn movies all day w/2 friends you care much about
it is okay to have to say goodbye to friends

life is more than just okay... it is more than right & wrong... it is what you make of the okay and not so okay events that make up the day. i am burnt out on life as of now... it will be nice to have not just okay days... but ones that you call your friends about... days you dwell & smile on for months to come. it will be nicer than cake :)